Ahhh....remember 2020?  Doesn't it seem like a long time ago that as started to realize what a train wreck the year was going to be...things just got worse.  And not only that, it was like every month there was something going on that was powerful or just plain outright awful.  In this entry of my blog I am going to write about my life post quarantine or basically what I have been up to in 2021. But first...

Awww....amazing show wasn't it?  Can't wait for season 3.  But that will be another blog for another day.  For now we are talking about 2021.  Well, for me I made some changes.  First off I changed my employment and right around the middle of the summer of 2020 I started working remotely for the University of California, San Diego.  Go Tritons!  As 2021 began I found myself still working for UCSD but tragedy struck really unexpectedly.  I lost 2 people that were very close to me, that I very much loved.  He was a son, a husband, a father, a brother, and so much more to so many people, but to me, he was someone very special to me in my life.  We were more than just friends or brothers, we were crew.  And on New Years Day 2021, my dearest friend was called to heaven along with his mother.  My family, all my friends families were just crushed.  Out of respect I am not going to go into any details about this but I will just say we lost them to COVID.  My 2021 was off to a horrible start, and to be honest, 9 months later it still hurts just as much as it did on day one this year.  I am not as scared as I was but I really had to dig deep into my self, my faith.  I still struggle with at times but I am working on it.

With that said, my personal life stayed on track the best I could.  I stayed working at my job remotely, I stayed safe, and did all I could to help the others around me.  My fathers health got off to a rough start as well this year but he made it through like a super star that he is.  Now he is doing really well and I couldn't be more thankful for that.  My sister is doing well also.  Her and I have grown much closer now that I moved back and as much as we are there for each other, I know she is the one woman I can count on.  I try to reach out to friends when I can but from I know they are also doing okay.

With the summer nearing an end, I am looking forward to a more social holiday season.  I am hoping things get better and hopefully we can have a safe family Christmas holiday this year.  I really missed that from last year.  So much noise going on now with the vaccinations, and mask wearing etc. etc. etc.  It is difficult to not hear this noise but it is everywhere and I am starting to feel like it is dividing us as humans.  I don't like that and I don't want to blog about that.  I am writing this to give a sense to you how it effects my mental health.  For me it is difficult but at the same time, I am the kind of person that wants to help everyone.  I want us all to be safe and healthy but not at the cost something horrible.  If we all can find a way to get through this thing then maybe, just maybe we might get a Christmas holiday season back this year.

"The Future Belongs To Those Who Prepare For It Today."

As of the time of this post, I am going to leave it.  I haven't really figured out how I feel about all that has happened this year.  It has been so up and down emotionally that I can't put it into words.  If I read this tomorrow or another day and it sounds wrong then I will take it down.  I am trying to write from my heart without really looking at any notes.

Thats all I got for tonight.